Ok...I am new at this. I have never blogged before. But my initial thought was this could be a sort of online diary where I could find a place to express myself and hopefully heal myself and others with this cathartic process. So lately I have been feeling overwhelmed with a lot of thoughts and emotions; aspects of my life that I want to change. So I want to jot some things down on paper and see how I feel about them once they are out there for all the world to see.
First: Anxiety
For some reason over the past 6 months I have been experiencing some major anxiety. I find myself jumping to conclusions, telling myself that the worse case scenario will come to pass and breaking down over events that have not yet occurred. I don't really understand where this came from. So in order to thwart this line of thought I am implementing a philosophy: Don't live your life in fear of what may come, instead enjoy the moment as it is, in the present, and if for some reason the outcome is negative then we will deal with that when the time is appropriate. I have found that my previous disadvantageous line of thought was not only ruining milestones or precious family moments for myself but for those around me as well. And simply put, this shit's gotta stop. So it's time take this anxiety on with full force and learn from the countless examples in my life (my marriage, my family, my friends, my home, my world, myself) are strong enough to deal with what may come and be better off and more at peace because of the obstacles we have over come.
So I am going to take this empowered line of thought and run with it in the hopes that a change is gonna come.
